As many of you may have already figured out, we are no longer living in our home anymore. Long story short, we didn’t get to renew the lease and have been in hotels since July 1st. We had two days to have everything packed and out, I lost all my kitchen items as we just didn’t have time and I stayed up for over 48 hours doing most of it myself. At one point I even told my husband I wanted out of our marriage during all this. I won’t lie, it is extremely stressful and I’m seriously trying to hold it together as we try to sort out our life. There have been a lot of bad moments since getting notice of our departure of our wonderful home to the life in hotels. But to be honest there were a lot of bad moments leading up to this as well. Many of you may remember that exactly this time last year we were also living in hotels, so as you can imagine I’m getting pretty tired of that type of life.
Hotels are suppose to be for those that are moving into a house if they have to wait a day or two to get things turned on, moving across country or even going on vacation. However, one is NOT suppose to LIVE in a hotel, not unless there has been some natural disaster where you must. Or maybe it is just me. Who knows? You try staying in a hotel room with four kids and keeping up with your online college classes. I won’t lie, I’ve even considered calling the school up and putting that on hold. But I know if I were to do that even when life gets back on track I may not ever get back into it.
I’ve wanted to tell ya’ll so long, however I was told I shouldn’t blog about my life. Not blogging about it meant holding it in because this is the place I come when I need to vent. It’s my friend, ya’ll are family. Not sharing this has been bugging me but after talking in the Bloggers & Brands Summit11 thread today I learned that ya’ll may want to hear about the good and the bad. If not let me know now. But I think I need to get this out.
As the days tick by so does our time, the kids begin school just next month and so far every number I have called has not called back. I’m grabbing at straws at this point, I want a house. I’ve heard stories here how the families have lived here for months, this is not something I want for me or my family. During all of this though I am also becoming more and more home sick no matter how indifferent we are towards one another they are always my family and I really miss them. Tell me all will be fine will ya? Because until this year, I thought no matter what things had happy endings (yes I’m a romantic and had always been an optimistic until the last few years) but so far I see one dark storm after another, sure things go great for a while but then it hits and you are on the floor looking up wondering what could possibly happen next. I know I’m normally a chipper self but I no longer want to hide from ya’ll. This is the real me, I can be happy one moment but when life comes at me from every angle I just can’t keep the smile on. Be prepared because I can see this blog is about to become more honest than you’ve ever seen. I hope you are ready. Not to worry though, I’ll still chat about my weight, my kids, products and lots of giveaways coming up. Until then, thank you for reading this much.